Taylor Swift, in a new documentary about her life, has revealed her struggle to overcome an eating disorder. In Miss Americana, which premiered at the Sundance Film Festival, she said photographs and comments about her appearance had triggered the condition.
In an interview with Variety magazine, she opened up about how the disorder all started. "I remember how when I was 18, that was the first time I was on the cover of a magazine, and the headline was like 'Pregnant at 18?'" she said. "And it was because I had worn something that made my lower stomach look not flat. So I just registered that as a punishment.
"And then I'd walk into a photoshoot and be in the dressing room and somebody who worked at a magazine would say, 'Oh, wow, this is so amazing that you can fit into the sample sizes. Usually, we have to make alterations to the dresses, but we can take them right off the runway and put them on you!' And I looked at that as a pat on the head. You register that enough times, and you just start to accommodate everything towards praise and punishment, including your own body."
According to Taylor, she makes a conscious effort not to judge her body again. She believes "it's better to think you look fat than to look sick."